I used to have this teacher and whenever a student replied to her suggestion with a, “Yeah, but…” she would quickly interject (every single dang time)–“yeah-buts live in yungles.” Yes, yungles, not jungles. I still remember this and I think this was my second or third grade teacher. She also had a love of providing ample food during class in the form of peanut butter on bread. Maybe that is why I remember her.
But let’s get on with my yeah, buts…
I found myself thinking about my writing. I was reflecting on all the ways it could be better. I was thinking about all the mistakes in past notes and posts and well, everywhere…and on and on this crazy tape in my head wanted to go. It even went to comparing my stuff to other bloggers, famous authors and the lyrics of Boy George. Humpf!
I love the way some writers can make their words roll together in such a way that liquid magic drips right off the page. But I wasn’t thinking mine could and was telling myself every which way they weren’t.
That judging and comparing was rolling right along.
It lead into other ideas and thoughts and then I started the ‘Yeah, buts…’
BUT this time…and this is HUGE, guys…I stopped them. I realized I was shutting down possibility, momentum, growth and everything before it even had a chance. I stopped them. And a tarot card popped into head. The seven of swords, called ‘futility.’
Futility is what stops you before you start. Of your own creation. Sabotaging yourself.
Take a look at the card. See the central sword and around it are all these other swords taking a chink out of it, making cracks, making it weak. That central sword is your idea, your plan or your thought. Those other swords are all the little things you are telling yourself about why it won’t work, why you can’t possibly do that, what will others think, and on and on.
Great lesson from this card. I love the way a tarot card has such powerful and useful lessons. In a reading it can help you recognize where or why or what is going on. It comes up as a teacher. (Thanks)
On the left is the Prince of Swords who fiercely cuts through thoughts. Perfect! Great tool to stop those nasty gremlins right in their tracks. Call up his image for strength.
In the middle is the 10 of cups called ‘satiety.’ It is about being full of emotion –this could be good or bad. In this case I was letting my emotions run my thoughts and decisions.
On the right is the Empress. She helps us bridge the space between what is inside and wants to come out. To allow our heart’s desire to flow into the world. To bring it in to the world. Awesome. So I can call on her for solution instead of letting the tapes run and run.
So no more tapes. No more comparing myself to Elizabeth Gilbert, Haruki Murakami, Boy George or Anthony Bourdain.
Thanks for having tolerance and patience with me.
I love writing these notes and trying to convey what I mean to say in the most helpful and fun way I can at the moment. I will evolve. There will be some good ones (and some not so), but I am gonna continue because if even just one thing I manage to scrawl across the screen (or say in a reiki session or tarot reading) starts a ripple of happiness, change and growth towards something better for you in your life then I am so frickin’ happy and thrilled to have been that one drop that started that ripple.
It really starts with you though. When YOU let it expand without any ‘yeah, buts…’