Please take a moment to enjoy the IOTD for October 6th by Ashley Brewer via The Wellness Universe and walk away feeling better and inspired!
I took me a number of years & multiple attempts at recovery before I finally understood that my addiction started in my mind & that drugs were but a symptom of an underlying issue.
In previous attempts to get clean, I found that not long after removing the toxic substances from my life, I was faced with a hailstorm of emotions that I had no idea what to do with. I never grasped the coping skills I needed to deal with the situations of my past that led me to seek relief from, to begin with. Inevitably, I relapsed and this pattern went on for several more years until I hit my rock bottom & sought recovery again. This time around was different, though. I was finally doing it for myself & not another person or institution.
I entered the rooms of 12 step fellowship with open eyes. I saw the 12 steps in a way I never seen them before. Upon working the steps with my sponsor, I learned so much about myself. I learned my strengths as well as my character defects. I learned how to accept myself, good & bad, past & present. I learned the tools I needed to face my past demons, & actually feel the emotions they brought me and worked through them. When we allow ourselves to feel, when we become entirely willing to deal, it is at that moment we begin to heal. I’m grateful for the gift that was shown to me for I’m free from the bondage of addiction today. I wish the same for any of you that may be battling an addiction.