I have a confession to make. I’m a bit of a fraud.
This came as a surprise to me.
I talk a good talk. In fact, I’ve been doing it for years. I talk about finding magic in everyday moments, being present, taking time to breathe, feeling your emotions, uncovering your inner treasures, being positive (but real), and finding beauty all around you.
And I believe in these things, one hundred percent. But the other day I realized I haven’t been practicing them in my life – to any great extent, anyway – for quite some time. I’ve been living on the surface of life and have gotten caught up in routines, ruts, and day-to-day stuff.
So I’ll just say it: I haven’t been walking my talk. My words have been hollow. Unintentionally so, but still.
I’ve been playing it safe for far too long, not diving within to get quiet and communicate deeply with my higher self to see where I’m at right now, at this stage of my life.
I’ve somehow lost touch with the deeper part of my own voice, what I want to create for my life, and the gifts I’m here to share. I haven’t been making space for the inner exploration that’s so important to me. I’ve been taking the easier way out, going with what I know in my head versus exploring how I feel in my heart.
I’ve become passively positive. It doesn’t honour my soul and it’s whittling away at my peace of mind.
There’s so much within that’s waiting to be unearthed – both light and shadow. I need to be my biggest advocate, the one that honours and nurtures the inner voice that’s ready and aching to be heard. It’s time to let go of worrying about how I sound to others and focus on how I sound to ME.
If I don’t take proper care of my own needs, how can I set an example for my kids of how to live an authentic life? If I don’t listen to my soul, how will I ever feel deeply fulfilled in a sustainable way? If I don’t uncover and own my gifts, how will I shine my light as brightly as I feel I’m meant to?
It’s time to listen to my soul. Really, really listen.
What will happen from here, I have no idea. But isn’t that part of the adventure?