I was sexually molested at the young age of seven. Every part of me knew that what was happening was wrong. In that moment, fear overtook me and at the same time, a calmness. I KNEW I would handle this and tell the right people. I KNEW he would have to pay for his actions. I also KNEW in that moment I had to endure what was hell for my own safety. But with that experience came a personal power that I carry around till this day. I remember being told how brave I was. How I saved other girls. How strong I was. I remember internalizing those words but not really “getting” them. It didn’t feel brave to feel helpless in that moment. It didn’t feel strong to have had to endure that. No part of me felt any of those things. I felt naïve. I felt taken advantage of. I felt powerless. I sat in that courtroom at seven years old having to describe what someone did to me and what parts of my body they touched and had to give those parts a name out loud. I had to DEFEND my seven year old self to the courtroom as to why I didn’t do more to stop this ADULT from doing what he did. I had to point out the man, describe what he was wearing, state my address where I was living, all the while thinking that when he was out of here or jail or wherever, he was going to come and find me. Can you imagine what that does to someone? I know what it did to me.
It showed me that I can face and handle anything. It showed me that I can make the choice to not live a life of feeling sorry for myself and any amount of self pity was just a waste of energy and time. None of that was going to change what happened. I learned that it was okay to question why it happened and to ask “why me”? Not out of self pity though, but rather out of learning, growing and moving forward. I learned that experiences and circumstances do not define who or what I am but rather give me the opportunity to discover my true character when faced with challenges. I don’t make excuses for why things are. I accept them or I change them but I don’t wallow in them.
These are the choices I have made given my circumstances. These are the lessons I’ve chosen to take from my life. We all have choices. I choose to live my life with purpose, positivity and an insatiable appetite to constantly grow and learn all while loving and laughing my way through this beautiful and truly miraculous life! We are all dealt a certain hand, a hand that is tailor made for us and it is up to us to stand and walk through those challenges with our heads held high and a knowingness of how strong, brave and amazing we truly are.
So you can continue to speak about why it is you can’t do a certain something in your life, or why you can’t seem to trust people, or why nothing in your life seems to work out for you. You can continue to blame your past for every reason why you can’t be happy. Not one of those reasons will bring you any closer to living the life you dream of. So much of what we hold on to from the past has no basis in the present moment. Shine a light on your fears, doubts and worries and you will see that it’s all been so scary because it’s been sitting in the dark places in your mind. It’s time to let all that go! It serves no purpose in your life today except to give you excuses not to move forward in your life. Sounds like YOU are the one holding you back, not your past.
Is there something in your life that you feel is holding you back from truly living the life you dream of? Are you ready to finally let go of the story and start living? I’d love to know below in the comment section.
With Love,
I am a motivational speaker, author, life inspirer, and vlogger. I am the Co-Founder of The Wellness Universe and am presently working on several other life-changing projects with our company, Soul Ventures, that will bring forth positive change on this planet. Besides talking, I am equally passionate about travel. My idea of the perfect life is spent on planes, trains, and automobiles seeing the world. I have pep talks with myself daily. One of my biggest beliefs is that we all have a gift that is uniquely ours and it has been given to us so we can share it. It is rare that you will find me without a smile and it is rare that I’m not trying to make you smile. I presently live in Los Angeles with my boyfriend and our cat, Hershey. I would say I have a pretty simple but extraordinary life!
