I was a lively, talkative 70s indigo child, who loved to make everyone smile and laugh. A psychic dreamer, often scaring my family with my accuracy, and ability to see and hear spirit.
I became an adult at 5 years old, thanks to a neighborhood teen.
I went on to endure many more years of abuse from a family member.
I looked within, I heard my inner voices that told me right from wrong, I wanted to understand, I wanted answers but I just didn\’t know how to go about getting them.
Over the years as my ability to see and hear Spirit got stronger, I became more confused and angry.
I found Religion, I became obsessed, I wanted answers from this so called God, that would allow such things to happen to innocent children!
The Down Pour
I was badly bullied, “Look at that wild looking, Red haired freckle faced weirdo”.
I started writing, poems mostly, many way beyond the wisdom of my birth years, but I really hated myself, and tried to take the easy way out.
I attempted to rid the world of me, end the pain, feel pure love again.
Thankfully, this was not meant.
The Thunder & Lightning
At 16 I was diagnosed with very painful, Stage 4 Endometriosis, and was told I would never have any children. At 18, I met my Soul Mate and future husband, 17 miscarriages later, we went on to have two children, one of each, against all odds.
In 2009, at 39, I had my 27th surgery. This was finally my escape from so many years of terrible pain.
It was an extra long recovery, unusual for me, but I had the most amazing, and first pain free summer of my adult life.
In 2010, I was diagnosed with a mysterious illness, making my body have an allergic reaction to the world. By 2012, I was so sick I was unable to work anymore and was totally disabled.
I was home with my Family
In August 2014, I was rushed to the hospital, so sick that I was literally on my deathbed, it was then, that I was blessed with the most beautiful, lucid moment with Spirit, I have ever had, showing me how our souls are fueled by love, that love is the most powerful of our emotions, and can be disguised as abuse, hate and control, or embraced as safe, pure, and unconditional.
Basking In The Sun
So here I sit, on a beautiful Spring evening, several months after this life altering day, writing this in complete forgiveness and love for every single gift I have been given during my journey.
From the years of abuse, I was gifted forgiveness and the beautiful purity of self love.
From the years of pain, I was gifted tolerance, endurance, and perseverance.
Today, with a diagnosis of MCAD, an Incurable disease that wreaks havoc on your whole body, a condition that I have unknowingly passed on to my children, and I am overwhelmed with blessings.
I have been gifted my writing outlet, \’Jenny\’s Positive Posts\’, my amazing Wellness Universe Family. The gift of awakening each morning to my beautiful husband and children everyday, to sit outside with nature and just be, and the opportunity to share and connect with beautiful souls like you.
Life is always going to be full of storms, this is our journey.
How we choose to maneuver through them so we can bask in the sun, is our destiny.
May you always have your light to guide you, your love to warm you, and the brightest of blessings to reward you.